But my mind always goes in circles that it misses the whole point.
Oh, so that’s anxiety…
Let go.
But my mind always goes in circles that it misses the whole point.
Oh, so that’s anxiety…
Let go.
some days i learn to take it day by day,
other days i’m racing against time only left defeated in the end.
some days i have all the energy i need just by a smile given from a loved one,
other days just putting on a smile takes up all my energy.
what i learned about time is bravery will come with it and love will still it.
growing older in body but living younger in soul.
i’m appreciating this moment and every little bit that comes with it.
because in a blink of an eye
you begin to realize
the one you gave birth to
is the one who gave you life.
Stupid.
Ouch. Embarrassingly one of the most used words against me. Sometimes from strangers, other times from people close to my heart. Sometimes for fun, other times to hurt. But who am I to say otherwise? I am in no way agreeing. I understand — I never gave them a chance.
I never gave them a chance because I felt unworthy of who I was.
I never gave them a chance because I didn’t have a voice.
I never gave them a chance because I, myself, started believing it was true.
It’s all labels. Labels we draw on others with washable markers never needing to think twice about it because it washes off the first try. Labels we never realized that just on the other side, the receiver tattooed those words in bright obnoxious colours deep within their skin to be reminded day after day the permanency and painful traces it leaves behind. Labels that scar. Labels that hurt. Labels that embed fear. Labels that stay.
I get it. Being boxed in in someone’s eyes is somewhat easier, almost comforting, but in all honesty – – it’s lazy. Because you’re passing all responsibility away from yourself. Because the fear of stepping outside that box requires you to redefine yourself, by yourself. And how do you redefine yourself after years and years of being closed in? Where can you, do you, even begin?
You begin with you. The you that is worthy of every waking moment given to you by this earth. The you that speaks in bold, underline and italics through body, mind and heart. The you that deserves truth. The you that believes in you! It is now our chance to breakthrough our cemented self-doubts and into the infinite unknown.
So maybe it isn’t that we fear the labels and judgements, but rather we fear the alternative — freedom.
It is now our chance to give them that chance.
You are stupid. You are free.
With you always,
under the tree is where true play comes alive.
maybe it’s the laughters or the storytelling.
maybe it was the sun sneaking a game of hide and seek.
maybe it was the sea breeze chasing you through the branches for another round of tag.
or maybe it was simply being.
whatever the maybe may be,
i hope to meet you under the tree.