I finally finished my first ever journal. This is a huge accomplishment for me. (You can use my
unfinished notebooks as reference.) I started this practice back in November 2015 with the intention of
just sorting my thoughts out and trying to get full value of my $10. But with time and practice, I began to
grow as a person.
In the beginning of my journal, I was dealing with a lot of self-esteem issues. Dealing with motherhood.
Dealing with myself. I got to overcome these barriers with patience, forgiveness and lots of love.
When faced to faced with my thoughts in writing, I began to see words that did no good and where I
needed to change for the better. I trained my thoughts to control the negative ones that
essentially hindered my progress. Journaling has helped me to control my emotions. To help me
understand why I feel what I’m feeling. And that everything external to me isn’t the problem – my way of
thinking was. I was no longer making excuses for things that I know were in my control and learned
to let go of the things that weren’t. I began to place no blame on others but reflect back to myself and ask
Journaling is a form of prayer and meditation. You are intentionally looking for a peace of mind when
you lift that pen and start writing. And I have to say, each time it never fails me to learn something new
about myself. It’s a private practice that only you and the book will have. No one will ever get to read
your rough draft. I don’t know about you but I tend to ignore and numb the bad things hoping for it to go
away. But we all know bottling things up will only resurface with time. That’s why
journaling releases resentment, judgement …anything negative really. At least it did with me.
It’s difficult to be alone with your thoughts. At first you have no idea of what to write and when you do
you start to feel embarrassed or uncomfortable, but don’t be. There will be moments where you don’t get
anything meaningful from it, take it for what it is. Like with everything else in life that’s good for you,
you just need to keep pushing. It’s a process you will need to get through and with time and
practice, you’ll begin to have this unknown abundant love for yourself.
Be prepared when you choose to go into your thoughts. I’m not going to lie, it’s scary. I even thought I
was going crazy for a bit. But understand that it takes a lot of courage to do so. We are given this life to
live it wholeheartedly, with great bravery and a worldly amount of faith. Your faith is your safe haven.
You will break through and I promise you will only have nothing but love.
Happy writing, all!